Sunshine in my mind but not outside!

Today is an ugly day outside; gloomy, wet, looks like it's going to rain BUT I am in a happy mood for the first time this week!!

Why you are wondering? You're going to think I'm dumb but it's because I feel like I look cute!! Told you it was dumb!! :)

All winter long I've been wearing pants and sweaters - for two reasons: 1. It's always freezing in my office and 2. None of my skirts fit - yup, sad isn't it!

At Christmas time I purchased a clearance outfit with the thought process of "I'll wear when I lose weight". I had a baby shower to go last Saturday; was looking thru my closet and came across it. I tried it on not thinking it would look good BUT low and behold it did!! I felt young and cute while at the shower.....which is good since I'm child free by choice (that is a hard concept for many to understand) so looking nice helps me feel confident!! I did laundry on Sunday so I could wear it again this week!! Yeah me!!

I am also happy because it seems as if the male half of the couple I mentioned earlier this week is planning on being my friend still. While I realize that things maybe be different (maybe forever or maybe while healing takes place from the couple's fight this weekend) its much better than the feeling I've had since the weekend which was I'd lost both of them this weekend. I'm hoping the wife of the couple will realize that I am indeed a nice person and and we can again work on our friendship. Is that lame? Maybe a little bit considering the situation but I guess I'm a little....I don't know....needy, dorky, people pleaser? I think it stems from a part of my childhood when I tried so hard to fit in only to be turned away again and again. People should like me dam it!!

Okay that is all.

Peace!